God is So Good All the Time!

Do you believe in God? Does God really exist? In my own perspective, (Yes!) he exists. I couldn't see him and touch him but I could feel his presence. This week, we celebrate "Holy Week" from March 29, 2015 to April 4, 2015.  What is Holy Week? According to the internet, Holy Week is the week preceding Easter and the final week of Lent. Holy Week begins with Palm Sunday and ends with Holy Saturday, the day before Easter Sunday. Holy Week includes Holy Thursday (also known as Maundy Thursday) and Good Friday, which, together with Holy Saturday, are known as the Triduum. During Holy Week, Christians commemorate the Passion of Christ, who died on Good Friday in reparation for the sins of mankind, and rose on Easter Sunday to give new life to all who believe. Thus, while Holy Week is solemn and sorrowful, it also anticipates the joy of Easter through the recognition of God's goodness in sending His Son to die for our salvation.

Isn't it amazing how God saved us from our sins? He sacrificed everything and endured all the pains. Nonetheless, there are some people who don't believe in God. They are called atheists. On the other hand, there are some people who believe that it is impossible to know whether or not God exists and they are known as agnostic. Every person has his own philosophy in life. And I respect them! 

Based on my personal experiences, I could really say "God is so good!" There are also times that I questioned God. I know I don't have the right to question him but I couldn't really stop myself by asking him, "Why? Why did he take my daughters away from us?" I provided all the needs of my daughters. I worked harder for them. I even compared my situation to another people. There are some parents who just left their kids somewhere. On the other hand, those children, who are being taken cared of, took from their loved ones. Where is the justice? Isn't it unfair? The time I lost my two daughters, my life became so miserable. At that time, I almost lost my trust to God. Why did He let it happen to my family? I even thought of ending my life. 

"With my Daughters"

However, God never let me down. We were able to buy all our needs from through the help extended to us. After one month, I received a good news. I got pregnant. From that time until now, I become a stronger mother. A mother who will do everything for her baby. God doesn't neglect me. He listens to my prayers up to now. I realized, I have to think the positive things happened in my life. A lot of blessings come to my life until now. I gave birth to my baby safely even if I underwent two cesareans already. I had my first CS last February 2011 and the 2nd one last July 2012. Last August 4, 2014, I had another cesarean operation again. I didn't experience any complications. My previous OB told me not to have a baby immediately because of my condition but God is so good. He guided me throughout my journey. I gave birth to a 3.8 kgs. baby boy. I named him "Earl Ignacio" from my name Pearl and the name of my husband Ignacio. He is eight months old now. My womb was just smaller but the baby inside was very healthy. Thanks God! I easily recovered from the operation. After one week, I was able to stand and sit down by myself. I didn't feel any pain. I worked again after three weeks. My husband was also awarded an apartment where we live right now. It is  big help for us because we don't have to rent a house which is quite expensive. We could stay here until my husband retires from his job. My work goes well. I have kind students though sometimes, I encounter some rude students.

"This picture was taken few hours after I gave birth to him."

"My 8 months old baby love."

Moreover, I have the chance to study again in the university. I am dreaming of becoming a teacher and God gives me another opportunity to study again. It is really difficult in my part to do a lot of things at the same time but I have to do this and I know I can to be able to achieve my goals. I know, God will always be there to guide me in the right way. Thank you so much Lord God for all the blessings and the blessings that will come into my life! You are so amazing! So, to those people who feel so down, please pray to God. I know he will listen to you. Trust Him! We can't avoid questioning him especially in the time we have nothing. But don't worry if we have some problems, it is a challenge for us. It will test our trust on Him. Just remember, God will not give us problems which we can't surpass. God is so good all the time!